Strengthening My Faith

I do most things through music. At this point in my life... this song sums up everything, and is all I need! ♥

I say a prayer every night, whatever I do, I'll get it right
With no regret, no guilt or shame this time, no not this time
Once I surrender, I won't dare look back, cause if I do, I'll get off track
Move ahead in faith, and patiently await your answer, what will it be

[Chorus:]
Sight beyond what I see
You know what's best for me
Prepare my mind, prepare my heart
For whatever comes, I'm gone' be ready

Strength to pass any test
I feel like I'm so blessed
With you in control, I can't go wrong
'Cause I always know, I'm gonna be ready

I was free to do, what I wanted to, lost everything, but I still had you
You showed me your grace, now my life's renewed and I thank you, yes.. I thank you
So I'll tell anyone who'll listen, I'll testify
About how good you were to me, when so call friends passed me by
The fact that you would show somebody so broke down, so-much-merccccyyy...

[Chorus:]
Sight beyond what I see BEYOND WHAT I SEE
You know what's best I KNOW YOU KNOW WHAT'S BEST FOR ME
Prepare my mind...PREPARE MY MIND AND PREPARE MY HEART
For whatever comes...FOR WHATEVER COMES I GONNA BE READY

Strength to pass any test GIVE ME THE STRENGTH TO PASS ANY TEST
I feel like I'm so blessed I KNOW THAT I'M SO BLESSED
With you in control...YOUR IN CONTROL LORD, CAN'T GO WRONG NO
'Cause I always know...CAUSE I KNOW THAT I'M GONNA BE READY

So use me as you will, I'll pay the price
'Cause made the ultimate sacrifice
It's all because of you, that I even have life
And I'll give my love, as a tribute, to how great you are...

[Chorus:]
Sight beyond what I see BEYOND WHAT I SEE
You know what's best I KNOW YOU KNOW WHAT'S BEST FOR ME OHH OOHH
Prepare my mind...PREPARE MY HEART AND PREPARE MY MIND
For whatever ...FOR WHATEVER COMES I GONNA BE READY YEAH YEAH YEAH

Strength to pass any test I WANNA PASS THIS TEST
I feel like...I KNOW THAT I AM, KNOW THAT I AM, KNOW THAT I'M SO BLESSED
With you in...YOUR IN CONTROL OF MY LIFE LORD, I CAN'T GO WRONG NO
'Cause I always know...AND I KNOW IT I'M GONNA BE I'M GONNA BE READY

I'm gonna be ready THIS TIME I'M GONNA BE
I'm gonna be ready CAUSE YOU LIVE DEEP INSIDE OF ME
I'm gonna be ready AND I KNOW IT'S IN YOUR WILL FOR ME TO BE READY
YEAH YEAH YEAH UUUHHHHH
I'M GONNA BE READY

The Ugly Truth

"The trouble with some women is that they get all excited about nothing -- and then marry him."

What a wonderful weekend it's been. I enjoyed the nights out with the ladies, but equally enjoyed my Sunday night IN! I went on my weekly trip to Target (I always seem to forget something on my list!) While there I bought "The Ugly Truth" a movie I had been itching to add to my secret chick flick collection! ;) I got to thinking after the comedic film... the truth about the "dating" world really is ugly!

I'm not a dater... I have chosen to stay out of the world as much I can. To me, it's awkward and lots of times... a waste of time! I have many friends that are the "Go, it's a free dinner!" kinda girl. I, on the other hand, won't typically accept a drink from a guy at a bar because then I feel obligated to give him a good chunk of my time. And if I'm not interested in doing that, I don't think he should have to spend any money on me! I get crap for this a lot, but really... if I know I'm not into you... let me help you save our time and your money!

You see, I have been in a relationship for most of my "dating years." I have entered the single world after some painful relationship experiences and had no desire to let anyone in for a bit. My brutally honest friends tell me that I am "too damn picky and need to put myself out there more!" And they're probably right, maybe I need to give more dudes a chance before writing them off so quickly. I just truly haven't come across any guys in this city that seemed genuine enough for my time. There has been maybe ONE I might have been interested in... but most of the guys in this city are really not worth that extra minute. Or is this the Ugly Truth about the dating world?!

I'll give you a great example from this weekend:

While dancing with the gals, a guy had a security guard come get me to bring me to their VIP section. I told him not unless my girls come too - we're a package. The minute we walk up he pulls me aside and the first line out of his mouth was, "Do you want to go to a huge mansion and fu*k?" REALLY?! I laughed in his face and told him he had to be joking and I most certainly did NOT want to do that and we left that section soon after to be back to just us girls!

Now I'm going to try and remain positive and not lump all Atlanta men into this idiocy bubble, but more often than not, I have stories like the one above than good stories to report. I'm not saying I was in a productive environment to meet a decent man that night. In fact, I vow that you can't meet someone at a club or bar (but I try not to say never). However, accumulating all the stories from my girlfriends that I hear... there are some nightmares out there!

Which makes me want to continue to stay far away from the painful dating world. Don't get me wrong. I can't wait for the day to meet a cool guy that I can cook for, have a beer with, laugh with, and give lots of love and surprises to. But I'm not so eager that I have to fill my now with lots of guys on the hunt for that special one. I'm just gonna keep living my day to day... for myself: living on my own, paying my own bills, working hard, and enjoying my time with my friends, family and pup! And I will always turn to this song to give me that extra bit of hope! ;)